I know this makes me look bad
I hate that admitting weakness can cause people to shun you.
So, I will admit my weaknesses, because I know that others cannot or have not.
It is so much easier letting people see and believe only the good things within you. Yet, how can you or I grow if we aren’t allowed to look at our weaknesses, see them, hold them up for someone else to help us analyze them, and for someone else to tell us “you are okay.” God is the first person we need to hold these open discussions with—He is a lot more safe than any human—; yet even God designed it so that we humans must help each other, saying “help this, the least of my brethren, and in so doing, help me” (paraphrase).
I have things within me that are weak. Stupid. Lame. Embarrassing. Yet I also have wonderful things within me. I am a Son of God, not despite my weaknesses, but as part of His plan in making us human, sending us here to Earth to learn. As a Son of God, I am more valuable than I or you can imagine. And I want to learn. I want to improve myself. And I cannot do that if I cannot look at what is weak within myself. And I need help from other humans. That means that I have to communicate and share with other humans. Flawed humans. Humans who can reject me instead of help me. Humans who have hurt me in the past. Yet… With the fear, there is opportunity. Humans who have loved me, and taught me, and been there for me, and have shown me love when I could not even love myself. Humans who can see me more clearly than I can see myself.
I’m not sure this is written well at all. But I’m still going to share weaknesses about myself until I figure out a better way of writing this.
…and I hope that you are able to see the good things within me. :-)